Jeff went for his tests at the research study and things went well. We have to wait until Monday to see if it's all a go, but in the meantime, the researcher told me that she reviewed my records and I am not immune to Rubella. Apparently, I have to get a vaccine before I can start the research study. Sigh...this makes me very sad. (Another) delay. I cannot begin the drug therapy until 30 days after the vaccine. To those of you reading this, 30 days is probably just a bump in the road, but to me, it just seems like another big obstacle.
I called my doctor's office, my ob/gyn, even my mother in law who works for the county, seeking to find out if any of them could give me the shot. Of course because it was a Friday, almost no-one was in office, except my mother in law. Unfortunately, she cannot give me the shot. She was the only one that was helpful. She found out for me where I can get the shot. I'm so glad to have her to go to when I need help. Talk about having someone in your corner. I couldn't ask for better. I might have to go the Health Clinic. $100.00 out of pocket, another day juggling my schedule with work, and then another 30 days to try and get on an ovulatory drug.
I just feel like time is slipping away from me. I know with certainty that the drugs aren't going to work on the first round. IVF already told me they wouldn't give me ovulatory drugs because they would have to give me such a high dose. So in essence, it probably won't happen until the end of the study, if it even happens at all. And if I'm delayed another month, this puts me in the 6th month category of time going by. That's half a year people. I just turned 38 and I cannot even explain the anxiety and nerves that are coursing through my body. I will definitely be 39 by the time I have a baby, if I conceive. This means, I will probably only get to have one child. I use to dream of having 2 or 3 kids, but it looks like that dream is fading with each passing moment. One stalled effort after another.
Sorry to seem so negative, perhaps it's because I woke up with a migraine and I feel frustrated by the news. That's another thing that bugs me about this PCOS junk. I get constant migraines. I know my period is trying to start (aching breasts, bloating, fatigue, nausea, and oh yes...blinding...wake you out of a full on sleep on a Saturday morning at 6am headaches.) I took two Excedrin Migraine formula this morning for breakfast. Lovely. I feel totally sick! Not flu/cold sick, but headache/throw up sick.
On a positive note, I do get to start the Provera today so I can start my period. I'm very scared to take it because I am afraid my period won't stop once it comes, but I can't wait any longer. I'm going on 3 months now without a period. It's time to get it so the uterine lining does not build up again.
This morning I am going to take a pregnancy test, just to make sure that I'm not pregnant before I start the Provera and then I get to begin the fun of my period, but without the ovulatory drug and the impending doom of a SHOT! Blah.
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