Thanksgiving

Ok, so I've received  emails from people who have been logging on to read the blog asking, "What's going on? What's the latest update?"  I haven't wrote anything because I was waiting on, how shall I phrase  it? Lets just say I was waiting on "Aunt Flo" to rear her ugly head before I could post.  And let me just say for the record, forcing a period through Provera has proven to be a "bloody battle", literally. I have extreme ovarian pain and massive bleeding to the point that I had to take a sleeping pill Saturday to escape my pain. And I couldn't proceed with any treatment regimen until my period actually came. 


Well it happened. I took the Provera for the 10 days as prescribed by the research study and four days later, (this past Friday), my period came. I felt so excited to have it, because having it means I am hopefully closer to my goal of getting pregnant. I know that sounds counter productive, but it's not. 


Once I started my cycle, I called the research study and told Michelle, my researcher that I started. She advised me that I am to come in the day before Thanksgiving for my next round of Provera (which I have to take for another 10 days) and then guess what? I get to start my first round of drugs after the fifth day of my next cycle, which will put me at trying to conceive sometime in December. I'm not trying to be negative, but I'm almost positive I won't get pregnant on the first try.  (I've tried Clomid before and it didn't work at a low dose).  I don't know what I will be given, as it is a blind study. The only thing I can be sure of  is that I won't be receiving Placebo (which is a pill that for lack of a better term is a fake out). The researchers don't feel that it would be fair to give one set of people real drugs and the others a fake out. So I'm guaranteed either Clomid or something else that starts with an "L" that I can't remember, but both are ovulatory drugs.  I just won't know what I am receiving as it is a blind study.  The dose will increase each cycle for the next five months until I get pregnant or they terminate me.  Terminate sounds so final doesn't it? I hope I  never have to write a blog explaining that I have been terminated! 


In the meantime, I'm happy. I'm so excited that starting next month I will be in full swing of actually trying to achieve pregnancy.  It's fitting that I will actually begin this true journey the day before Thanksgiving because in essence, I am truly thankful for this opportunity.